I sent my sister a text this morning about Nathaniel and I coming for a visit. She replied and said too busy and it ended with "you rock!" I was so excited thinking I was something special. I sent her back a text asking what I had done to get a "you rock." I was thinking of all the possibilities- because I'm me... because Nathaniel is my son... Because it's a billion degrees out and I still took Nathaniel for a walk... The possibilities were endless.
She texted me back and my dreams were crushed. It's just her signature. SIGH... I am not so special after all. But, I still thought it was pretty damn funny.
Speaking of walking, it is stupid hot right now. 9 in the morning and it's over 80 plus humidity. Nathaniel really loves that wagon, so I took him for a walk anyway. I was so hot by the time we got back. I'd like to think that the really good looking condstruction worker that waved was waving at me, but I'm pretty sure it was at Nathaniel. He was really excited to see the big trucks that are redoing the cross street at the other end of the block (and I am happy it's at the other end of the block!). We only went around the block once, but I did take that walk again.
Tomorrow, it's supposed to be about 30 degrees cooler than today (stuffy nose anyone?) and rainy. We'll be going for that walk for sure! Good day to play in the rain. We will also be helping my mom find an apartment tomorrow, so that will consume a good portion of my day.
Oh, I almost forgot. I cleaned out the car (for our trip to Michigan City) so I can cross another thing off my day zero project list. Still working on others and will update on those when I can.
Showing posts with label summer days. Show all posts
Showing posts with label summer days. Show all posts
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
Thursday, June 2, 2011
This Should Be 8 Entries
There are so many things running through my head, and I will attempt to put them in some sort of order, but we all know how that might turn out. But here goes:
Entry 1: I Heard That Damn Song
I heard "Say What You Need to Say" on the radio this morning. I tried so hard not to cry, but I did. I think because I was thinking about being pregnant again by the time we go back to school in the fall. (Fall, ha! But that is another of the ramblings.) I am scared to get pregnant and scared not to.
I hate the waiting. I hate the what ifs. I hate that part of me wants to wait until I lose weight. I hate that part of me that knows that will never happen. I hate that if I do get pregnant, it will not be easy. I hate knowing what can happen to an unborn child when their mother is diabetic.
However, I loved being pregnant with Nathaniel. I loved the connection that we had. I loved singing Christmas songs to him in my tummy. I loved reading to him every day. I loved feeling him squirm inside me. I loved feeling him kick. I loved that Pat could feel him kick too. I loved the excitement that we shared. I loved talking to Nathaniel in my belly. I loved my 3:30 Jeopardy and ice cream time, and Nathaniel would go crazy every day at that time.
But I am scared.
Entry 2: Last Day Of School
HALLELUJAH!!!!! I am so happy that today is the last day of school. No more pencils, no more books, no more parent's dirty looks! No more 11 year old body odor. No more stopping fights over who looked at a boy or girl. No more stress!!
I can't wait to take my blood pressure next week and see how it's changed. I am so looking forward to my summer break. I know that it will be hard to keep Nathaniel entertained, since he is so used to being around other kids, but we can go to the park to play with other kids. We already signed up for the summer reading program at the library, and I think I may sign him up for a swim class. We won't be able to walk there though.
But it's over.
Entry 3: Summer Plans
OK, so I mailed out my baby's birthday invites this morning. I cry just thinking about it. Where has the time gone? My son is almost 2 years old. While I walked to the office to turn in my keys at school, I thought, "just two years ago I walked down this hall thinking next time I walk down them, I will be a mom." It just really hit me this morning. In 3 short years, I will be sending my boy to Kindergarten. I know he will just love it. All the kids, the structure, the learning... but I am getting ahead of myself. I want to enjoy this summer with my son. He is such an amazing little guy.
So, we have his party on June 26th, and his actual birthday on the 28th. I am thinking about going to the pool on that day, and asking some family to come along to swim. I think that would be fun for him. He goes to the dentist tomorrow (eek!) and then oon the 29th, he goes for his two year old check up and shots. July is pretty clear right now, but then in August we have Pat's birthday. I am planning a surprise party for him at Dave and Buster's, and I have to finish figuring out what we'll be having and all the logistics of the whole thing. It's going to cost a pretty penny, but I really want to be able to do it for him. It will also mark the end of my summer, so I really don't want to think too much about it.
But it will be fun!
Entry 4: Forgive and Forget
I have been really tring hard with this goal on my 101 things to do in 1001 days. I just find it really hard. The person is getting sicker and sicker, and part of me thinks that he deserves it. And then I despise myself for thinking that. When he dies, it will cause so much hurt to others that I love dearly. I don't want them to hurt at all, for any reason. I have been kinder to this person in recent months, but I really just can't stand the way he treats people. That's the crux of it. (Is crux a word that I've spelled and used correctly?) Why does a person treat someone so badly, and then expect that person to be "on call" 24/7? I mean, berating the person for every little thing and making them feel guilty for things they had no control over, but still demanding that no matter what that person has going on in life, they drop it for the sick person? I don't get it. Not at all.
But I am trying.
Entry 5: Another Goal Done
Speaking of my 101 things to do in 1001 days, I finished another goal yesterday without even realizing it. At the end of the school year, we have a party to celebrate. I bought them pizza for lunch. Usually, I collect money for the cost of the pizza, but this year I didn't. So I accomplished goal number 91, buy pizza for my class. Yay me, another one down.
OK, I think that may be all I have to say right now. School has ended and in a few minutes I have to go out to the BBQ. Can't wait until it's over.
HAPPY SUMMER 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Entry 1: I Heard That Damn Song
I heard "Say What You Need to Say" on the radio this morning. I tried so hard not to cry, but I did. I think because I was thinking about being pregnant again by the time we go back to school in the fall. (Fall, ha! But that is another of the ramblings.) I am scared to get pregnant and scared not to.
I hate the waiting. I hate the what ifs. I hate that part of me wants to wait until I lose weight. I hate that part of me that knows that will never happen. I hate that if I do get pregnant, it will not be easy. I hate knowing what can happen to an unborn child when their mother is diabetic.
However, I loved being pregnant with Nathaniel. I loved the connection that we had. I loved singing Christmas songs to him in my tummy. I loved reading to him every day. I loved feeling him squirm inside me. I loved feeling him kick. I loved that Pat could feel him kick too. I loved the excitement that we shared. I loved talking to Nathaniel in my belly. I loved my 3:30 Jeopardy and ice cream time, and Nathaniel would go crazy every day at that time.
But I am scared.
Entry 2: Last Day Of School
HALLELUJAH!!!!! I am so happy that today is the last day of school. No more pencils, no more books, no more parent's dirty looks! No more 11 year old body odor. No more stopping fights over who looked at a boy or girl. No more stress!!
I can't wait to take my blood pressure next week and see how it's changed. I am so looking forward to my summer break. I know that it will be hard to keep Nathaniel entertained, since he is so used to being around other kids, but we can go to the park to play with other kids. We already signed up for the summer reading program at the library, and I think I may sign him up for a swim class. We won't be able to walk there though.
But it's over.
Entry 3: Summer Plans
OK, so I mailed out my baby's birthday invites this morning. I cry just thinking about it. Where has the time gone? My son is almost 2 years old. While I walked to the office to turn in my keys at school, I thought, "just two years ago I walked down this hall thinking next time I walk down them, I will be a mom." It just really hit me this morning. In 3 short years, I will be sending my boy to Kindergarten. I know he will just love it. All the kids, the structure, the learning... but I am getting ahead of myself. I want to enjoy this summer with my son. He is such an amazing little guy.
So, we have his party on June 26th, and his actual birthday on the 28th. I am thinking about going to the pool on that day, and asking some family to come along to swim. I think that would be fun for him. He goes to the dentist tomorrow (eek!) and then oon the 29th, he goes for his two year old check up and shots. July is pretty clear right now, but then in August we have Pat's birthday. I am planning a surprise party for him at Dave and Buster's, and I have to finish figuring out what we'll be having and all the logistics of the whole thing. It's going to cost a pretty penny, but I really want to be able to do it for him. It will also mark the end of my summer, so I really don't want to think too much about it.
But it will be fun!
Entry 4: Forgive and Forget
I have been really tring hard with this goal on my 101 things to do in 1001 days. I just find it really hard. The person is getting sicker and sicker, and part of me thinks that he deserves it. And then I despise myself for thinking that. When he dies, it will cause so much hurt to others that I love dearly. I don't want them to hurt at all, for any reason. I have been kinder to this person in recent months, but I really just can't stand the way he treats people. That's the crux of it. (Is crux a word that I've spelled and used correctly?) Why does a person treat someone so badly, and then expect that person to be "on call" 24/7? I mean, berating the person for every little thing and making them feel guilty for things they had no control over, but still demanding that no matter what that person has going on in life, they drop it for the sick person? I don't get it. Not at all.
But I am trying.
Entry 5: Another Goal Done
Speaking of my 101 things to do in 1001 days, I finished another goal yesterday without even realizing it. At the end of the school year, we have a party to celebrate. I bought them pizza for lunch. Usually, I collect money for the cost of the pizza, but this year I didn't. So I accomplished goal number 91, buy pizza for my class. Yay me, another one down.
OK, I think that may be all I have to say right now. School has ended and in a few minutes I have to go out to the BBQ. Can't wait until it's over.
HAPPY SUMMER 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Today (So Far) Has Been Great
I went shopping at Target this morning. I just wanted to get a few things... a new shirt or two for summer, some sunblock, and that was about it.
As will usually happen when I walk into Target, I walked out with a lot more than that. I got the coolest backyard pool for Nathaniel. (I will post a picture of it soon.) I also got a beach bag and a mathing cooler. I got a little tote, so we can go to concerts and movies on the green. The villiage here shows movies and does concerts a few Fridays during the summer, and Pat and I have talked about going to see them. I bought a 6 pack of wiffle balls for Nathaniel too, to replace the ones his cousins had too much fun with when they were visiting.
I am so ready for summer. Now, if only the weather would agree! I think it actually got foggier out when I was shopping. But, amazingly, even that's not getting me down today.
There was one little time when I did cry today. I was looking for Father's Day cards, and found one that would have been great for my dad. I might still go back and buy it, and just leave it at his headstone, but I had to walk away. I pulled myself back together and finished shopping.
Overall, I had a good time. Let the summer begin!!!!
Link to the pool: Banzai Play Puff Fish Spray Pool : Target
As will usually happen when I walk into Target, I walked out with a lot more than that. I got the coolest backyard pool for Nathaniel. (I will post a picture of it soon.) I also got a beach bag and a mathing cooler. I got a little tote, so we can go to concerts and movies on the green. The villiage here shows movies and does concerts a few Fridays during the summer, and Pat and I have talked about going to see them. I bought a 6 pack of wiffle balls for Nathaniel too, to replace the ones his cousins had too much fun with when they were visiting.
I am so ready for summer. Now, if only the weather would agree! I think it actually got foggier out when I was shopping. But, amazingly, even that's not getting me down today.
There was one little time when I did cry today. I was looking for Father's Day cards, and found one that would have been great for my dad. I might still go back and buy it, and just leave it at his headstone, but I had to walk away. I pulled myself back together and finished shopping.
Overall, I had a good time. Let the summer begin!!!!
Link to the pool: Banzai Play Puff Fish Spray Pool : Target
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